In 34 more working days....

I wont be working.
Yeah.
I have known for about 3 months now but I havent really told anyone since this type of thing has happened before. I am a government contractor and every effin year it comes down to the wire on renewing the contract. They always know they are going to renew it but they switch companies. I have been in this position for 5 years and worked for 5 companies. It has always worked out and I have TRIPLED my pay since starting. I have been living on top of the world! I have worked 'in' this building since 1997, minus the 2 years I was a SAHM. I was married here (not literally), found out my exhusband was cheating on me while here (yes literally), went through my pregnancy and being a single mom here, got married again here and started my new life here. This place has been through it all with me.

This job has been boring to me for years but the pay rocks and so does the flexibility. There has been office politics/drama going on for the past year due to a skanky co-worker. It got really bad in the past few months to the point of I was almost in tears and taking my frustrations home with me because I was overwhelmed with work and she didnt do anything all day. This is only background to tell you that I dont love my job. I love the money and thats it.

Anyway. They have decided not to renew our contract. At all. This is 98% official. Our contract ends Sept 7....oh did I mention M's birthday is Sept 6? I'm always in such a great mood for her birthday parties not knowing how my job will play out. This year should really be a rockin party!

My pay will be cut in half (LITERALLY)when I lose this job. This is not an exageration. I get paid Washington, DC pay since my company is located there.....but I really live in Small Town, USA where you dont make any money.

We also cant forget that there goes babymaking. I carry the insurance on the family since The Husband is self employed. I could make more money staying home on unemployment rather than working but we wouldnt have any insurance. The baby thing makes me extra sad.

sigh.