at least this holds true for me.
I have kept my same exercise routine with a little mixing here and there and nothing happened. The weight would not come off. I cut back on this food and that food. Nothing. Finally I decided to cut back on my Mt Dew. I drink 2 per day and that's it.....honestly I don't think that's alot. I guess to my body it is because once I cut back I lost weight week after week.
Every other day I only have 1 Mt Dew. I just cant deprive myself (yet) and get rid of it totally. I did try diet Mt Dew but couldn't get past the first drink. The Husband had to finish it for me. (he will eat or drink anything) I am only losing around 1lb per week but still I was so shocked that I was finally continuously losing.
We wont talk about me being sick all last week and then getting ready for school to start this week.....that has delayed the exercise a bit.
So ladies, soda may be the key for you too! (I'm a slow learner)
This is a part of Amber's EM:ME. If you haven't already go over and link up to see what everyone else is talking about this week.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Twas the night before school
In the morning I will have an official 3rd grader. THIRD GRADE. That's like almost middle school. She will be on the top level of the school, moving closer out the door. She's starting to like boys and some of her friends are wearing bra's. My baby loves music and can wiggle her little hips quite well. She loves to listen to Taylor Swift and sing as loud as she can. She starts cheerleading next week and is soooo excited to do it.
My baby. sigh.
She is so grown in many ways but still my baby too.
We talk about anything and everything. I love that she talks to me and I always encourage it. I hate that she is away from me for so many hours a day so I like to get all the gossip when I finally see her.
Tonight we prepared all of her stuff for the 1st day of school so it will be ready in the morning. Book bag is ready, shoes by the door, clothes picked out and hairstyle has been thought of.
Oh wait, she said, she remembered that we always read Twas the night before Kindergarten every year on the night before school starts. Every year I change the grade to the grade she will be entering on the next day. It really touched my heart that she remembered this and its such a fond memory of hers. In the book the parents cry but the kids don't. She said but mom you never do that......oh sweet child, I have every year and I'm sure I will tomorrow too. I just hide it well. (I didn't tell her this....I told her I was proud of her and knew what a big girl she was and that she would be fine)
3rd grade is so old.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
For real?
I got this text yesterday from an old high school friend and it makes me giggle.
Side by side or miles apart a friend like you stays in my heart :)
Send to 10 friends including me or lose someone big tonight!
Isn't that sweet? Hmm lets think about this for a minute......
Soooo if I DON'T send this to 10 people someone will die or leave my life? Tonight?
*remember lose someone big tonight*
This text (or email....you know you get those too) is that powerful? Holy cow!!
So do you forward these because you are afraid, superstitious, think they are cute or do you just ignore?
I'm an ignorer.
Side by side or miles apart a friend like you stays in my heart :)
Send to 10 friends including me or lose someone big tonight!
Isn't that sweet? Hmm lets think about this for a minute......
Soooo if I DON'T send this to 10 people someone will die or leave my life? Tonight?
*remember lose someone big tonight*
This text (or email....you know you get those too) is that powerful? Holy cow!!
So do you forward these because you are afraid, superstitious, think they are cute or do you just ignore?
I'm an ignorer.
It's that time....
back to school time, that is.
Miss M has started the moaning and groaning about how school is boring. She will be entering the 3rd grade in just a few short days. Well once we went on a four hour long shopping spree where everything was all about her.......her attitude changed. She isn't allowed to use or wear any of her new things until she starts school. Now she cant wait. lol
I was a little shocked at her taste this year. She will be 8 yrs old in the next few weeks. That may seem young but really in this day and time that is like being 12. She is turning into such a little teen. Long gone are the days of princess stuff and I accept that. You can only take so much princess stuff! She was still a girlie girl though and I commented the other day how 1/2 of her shirts were pink. She would never wear black, ever. That is until this school year apparently.......
Let's take a visual tour of our shopping spree:
First was this skirt along with a pink shirt that has little rhinestones in the shape of a flower (I think its a flower) on it. (cant find a pic online of the shirt) The outfit is cute together!
OK so not too bad.
This next one was a shocker to me but she loved it so I obliged. The skull eyes has hearts and stars and she loves the scarf.
Lets move on to some shoes, shall we. These are called Twinkle Toes because they have rhinestones on the toe area. Apparently they are all the rage. I had never heard of them. Are you noticing a trend yet?
Lastly lets enter the name brand part of shopping. She has thrown around the words Aeropostale and Hollister in the past few weeks. I guess she got that from the older girls at daycare.
Hmm Aero wont let me copy their pics or upload from the web to blogger.
A green shirt:
and this is what she chose as her bookbag. She saw someone else have one last year and wanted this type. I made her look in all the other stores and Aero was our last stop.......she still liked this one. This isn't her exact bag.....I don't see it on the website. Hers is white and has a very light blue flower on it.
I picked myself up an Aero shirt too. They were on sale and super soft. She also got some pants and corduroys at Old Navy and other things but they arent anything out of the ordinary. So now you know what my 'baby girl' will be sporting for the 3rd grade!
Monday, August 10, 2009
The condensed version-part 2
continuation of updates........
I met up with an old friend (we reconnected on FB) and spent the day at the park chatting while our kids played. That was really nice!
The Husband and I had an alone weekend. No kids......zero!! It was very nice. We didn't do a whole lot but that was the point. We helped a friend move. We don't get to hang out with this group of friends much so it was nice to spend the morning catching up with them. We came home, took a nap, and got ready to go out. We followed the "do things we haven't done before-Summer O'Fun " and went to a restaurant we have never been to but have heard lots about it. It was a bit pricey but now we can say that we have been there. (it wasn't anything special, don't you hate that!?!) Then we went to rent a movie. Going in I said that we would get something we both liked.......we walked out with Bride Wars. lol There just wasn't anything good there.
Ohhhhhh I got complimented majorly by the clerk at the video store. Either that or she hit on me. Not sure.
Here's the recap.......
Clerk: whats your birth date?
Me: gives it to her
Clerk: No way, are you serious? You cant be that old.
Me: uh yep, sure am. (she was like 18)
Clerk: well you are doing something right because you look great
Me: thanks! (starting to get a little embarrassed)
Clerk: *turning to other clerk* do you believe she is that old? *she looks at me again* its no wonder he doesn't let you out alone *turns to The Husband
*she continues talking and everything is becoming a blur at this point. I remember her saying something about me looking good and somebody may want to 'break a piece off of that' or something. I'm assuming she meant I was a sex object? lol
So that bring us to last weekend. (I feel like Ive missed alot of stuff but I cant remember anything, ugh)
Last Friday I took the day off and so did my mom. She picked up my niece and we took the girls to Luray Caverns. It was so much fun!! I highly suggest it to anyone who has something similar nearby. I hadn't been since I was a kid so I didn't remember it at all. They give you headphones and a little screen thingy to wear on your neck. It is a self guided tour, when you reach a sign you punch in the number from the sign and it tells you about that area. Miss M got a little bored towards the end but my 6 yr old niece LOVED it. She loved punching in her own numbers and loved learning all about the formations. They have an adult tour and kids tour, you punch in which tour you want. The kids tour described everything in a Indiana Jones kinda voice. So fun!We left there, had lunch and then headed to the pool. It was too cold for me to get in so my mom and I just laid out and talked while watching the girls. There were a few boys there that M goes to school with. All I have to say is I may need to medicate myself soon. 8yr old boys should not look at my baby, tell her to watch them and try to impress her by going off the high dive. (yes, I know I am being ridiculous!!)My mom went home after the pool and my niece spent the night with us. She always asks but we are busy doing this or that so it never works out. This time I made sure to make time!! The Husband picked up his girls for the weekend so we had 4 giggling girls running around. They had a sleepover on the floor and thought they were the coolest. The next day we headed to my mom's (hour away) and spent the day swimming in her pool. Again too cold for me to swim but I did get in the water for a minute. Later in the evening we went to a Festival where the girls did pony rides and had yummy ice cream. Fun was had by all but you could tell they were exhausted. Me too! We took my niece back to my brother and spent a little time with him before heading home. I think we ALL went to bed at 9pm.
Moral of the story: I can't tell a SHORT story and should blog more often so that you aren't falling asleep at my 100 page posts.
I met up with an old friend (we reconnected on FB) and spent the day at the park chatting while our kids played. That was really nice!
The Husband and I had an alone weekend. No kids......zero!! It was very nice. We didn't do a whole lot but that was the point. We helped a friend move. We don't get to hang out with this group of friends much so it was nice to spend the morning catching up with them. We came home, took a nap, and got ready to go out. We followed the "do things we haven't done before-Summer O'Fun " and went to a restaurant we have never been to but have heard lots about it. It was a bit pricey but now we can say that we have been there. (it wasn't anything special, don't you hate that!?!) Then we went to rent a movie. Going in I said that we would get something we both liked.......we walked out with Bride Wars. lol There just wasn't anything good there.
Ohhhhhh I got complimented majorly by the clerk at the video store. Either that or she hit on me. Not sure.
Here's the recap.......
Clerk: whats your birth date?
Me: gives it to her
Clerk: No way, are you serious? You cant be that old.
Me: uh yep, sure am. (she was like 18)
Clerk: well you are doing something right because you look great
Me: thanks! (starting to get a little embarrassed)
Clerk: *turning to other clerk* do you believe she is that old? *she looks at me again* its no wonder he doesn't let you out alone *turns to The Husband
*she continues talking and everything is becoming a blur at this point. I remember her saying something about me looking good and somebody may want to 'break a piece off of that' or something. I'm assuming she meant I was a sex object? lol
So that bring us to last weekend. (I feel like Ive missed alot of stuff but I cant remember anything, ugh)
Last Friday I took the day off and so did my mom. She picked up my niece and we took the girls to Luray Caverns. It was so much fun!! I highly suggest it to anyone who has something similar nearby. I hadn't been since I was a kid so I didn't remember it at all. They give you headphones and a little screen thingy to wear on your neck. It is a self guided tour, when you reach a sign you punch in the number from the sign and it tells you about that area. Miss M got a little bored towards the end but my 6 yr old niece LOVED it. She loved punching in her own numbers and loved learning all about the formations. They have an adult tour and kids tour, you punch in which tour you want. The kids tour described everything in a Indiana Jones kinda voice. So fun!We left there, had lunch and then headed to the pool. It was too cold for me to get in so my mom and I just laid out and talked while watching the girls. There were a few boys there that M goes to school with. All I have to say is I may need to medicate myself soon. 8yr old boys should not look at my baby, tell her to watch them and try to impress her by going off the high dive. (yes, I know I am being ridiculous!!)My mom went home after the pool and my niece spent the night with us. She always asks but we are busy doing this or that so it never works out. This time I made sure to make time!! The Husband picked up his girls for the weekend so we had 4 giggling girls running around. They had a sleepover on the floor and thought they were the coolest. The next day we headed to my mom's (hour away) and spent the day swimming in her pool. Again too cold for me to swim but I did get in the water for a minute. Later in the evening we went to a Festival where the girls did pony rides and had yummy ice cream. Fun was had by all but you could tell they were exhausted. Me too! We took my niece back to my brother and spent a little time with him before heading home. I think we ALL went to bed at 9pm.
Moral of the story: I can't tell a SHORT story and should blog more often so that you aren't falling asleep at my 100 page posts.
The condensed version-Part 1
Is anyone still out there?
I feel like I havent posted anything exciting in a long time. I am going to do that all in one post. I always mean to update but I never actually get around to it. Last week I think I realized why I have been so slack on my blog lately. I talk to some of you off of blog land so you already hear enough of my life. lol I talk to Mel all day long, almost everyday and I chat with Staci on Facebook and email plus I keep up with a few others on facebook through status updates. Hmmm this is telling me that Facebook is the problem!! It replaced my blogging time......
Summer O' Fun has definetly been fun, yet exhausting. I think I will stick with the beach next year. We have done cool things every weekend which has left little time for normal things....you know like cleaning and organizing. Sooooo as you may have noticed I havent kept you updated lately.
In the past few weeks we have:
Tried out our new tent. (Note to self: camping stuff goes on sale because we paid more than that for it) It is so spacious! We camped in our backyard since it was our first time. This was kinda spur of the moment....more like umm honey the summer is almost over so we need to do this. After dinner we went outside and did our fire, roasted marshmallows, the kids ran around catching lightening bugs, and we just sat and relaxed around the fire. Honestly this was my favorite part. Just being outside with no distractions! I dont know about you but its so easily for me to get distracted or not make the time to do the relaxing stuff, so this was nice. We will be doing alot more fires! Back to the tent, The Husband and I slept on an air mattress and each of the 3 girls had sleeping bags. The clever Mel told me to get some glow sticks so we had them for the girls to play with and then at bedtime we hung them from the ceiling to have some light inside the tent. The girls slept all night long. I was honestly amazed. The Husband and I? Not so much! We dont live on a real busy road but some fast and the furious car decided to go past our house at 3:30am with their loud mufflers (or whatever it is) and that woke us up. Plus it was freezing. I was going to go in to get the keys and found out The Husband didnt lock the door. Uh, *I* am not going in there after the house has been unlocked for hours. So I stayed outside alone while he went in to get me some pants and a hoodie. We had a nice time and will do it again before the summer is over.
(this is starting to not be condensed so I will continue tomorrow)
I feel like I havent posted anything exciting in a long time. I am going to do that all in one post. I always mean to update but I never actually get around to it. Last week I think I realized why I have been so slack on my blog lately. I talk to some of you off of blog land so you already hear enough of my life. lol I talk to Mel all day long, almost everyday and I chat with Staci on Facebook and email plus I keep up with a few others on facebook through status updates. Hmmm this is telling me that Facebook is the problem!! It replaced my blogging time......
Summer O' Fun has definetly been fun, yet exhausting. I think I will stick with the beach next year. We have done cool things every weekend which has left little time for normal things....you know like cleaning and organizing. Sooooo as you may have noticed I havent kept you updated lately.
In the past few weeks we have:
Tried out our new tent. (Note to self: camping stuff goes on sale because we paid more than that for it) It is so spacious! We camped in our backyard since it was our first time. This was kinda spur of the moment....more like umm honey the summer is almost over so we need to do this. After dinner we went outside and did our fire, roasted marshmallows, the kids ran around catching lightening bugs, and we just sat and relaxed around the fire. Honestly this was my favorite part. Just being outside with no distractions! I dont know about you but its so easily for me to get distracted or not make the time to do the relaxing stuff, so this was nice. We will be doing alot more fires! Back to the tent, The Husband and I slept on an air mattress and each of the 3 girls had sleeping bags. The clever Mel told me to get some glow sticks so we had them for the girls to play with and then at bedtime we hung them from the ceiling to have some light inside the tent. The girls slept all night long. I was honestly amazed. The Husband and I? Not so much! We dont live on a real busy road but some fast and the furious car decided to go past our house at 3:30am with their loud mufflers (or whatever it is) and that woke us up. Plus it was freezing. I was going to go in to get the keys and found out The Husband didnt lock the door. Uh, *I* am not going in there after the house has been unlocked for hours. So I stayed outside alone while he went in to get me some pants and a hoodie. We had a nice time and will do it again before the summer is over.
(this is starting to not be condensed so I will continue tomorrow)
Monday, August 03, 2009
Totally boring job post
I have to get this out and get over it so feel free to skip this.....
We know I am a govt contractor. The rule is there always has to be govt personnel here for the staff to be able to be in the building. Makes sense but it doesn't always work out. There are 3 govt employees, me and another woman and then 40 other contractors. Me and the other woman are considered more govt since we do the admin stuff for the govt.
OK so, 2 weeks ago all 3 govt employees were off. Someone in DC was trying to get a hold of a govt employee and got no answer so she took it one step further....I wont bore you with the details but there was trouble. So the boss here (not our real boss, she is our govt boss) told us that the next time this happens that we need to call her at home at 9am and she will come in.
Oh surprise it happened again last Friday....as a side note everytone always gets sick on Friday. shocker. The boss left me a message last friday at 5:30am that she had a migraine but to call her if skanky coworker didnt come in because the 3rd employee had the day off. 9am comes and I call her house phone, noone answers. The other woman has her cell # so she calls that and it rings in her office. Nice. So I try to call her house phone again. I leave a message this time. I told her that noone was here, it was after 9am, a contract supervisor was looking for a govt employee and someones computer had crashed so I wasnt sure what to do about it.
Never heard a effin word back. All day.
The boss comes in this morning and asks if skanky girl came in Friday. I said no and read her off the list of things that went wrong on Friday. She said she didnt get my message until 12:30. Oooook and you didnt even call then? I was a bit flustered but held my cool. A little while later she comes over and says if that happens again we need to keep calling her until we get ahold of her. ARE YOU EFFIN KIDDING ME? *I* am at my job, doing your work because your staff doesnt ever work and you want me to be your alarm clock. I was FUR-I-OUS. I said ok but couldnt hold my tongue anymore. I said you know its really tough because about 5 people came through here saying how we shouldnt be working because there is no govt employees here blah blah and we have to listen to this BUT we are the ones who wont have a job in 24 more days. Not happy. I am pretty sure my voice cracked and you could tell I was shaking inside. I dont do confrontation but I couldnt take it anymore. It was like I was getting reprimanded because I came to work. Oh....she said I cant help if my staff is sick at the same time and walked away.
Well you know what, dear boss.....You suck as a boss and thats probably why I am losing my job. Its quite apparent to everyone else that this place is not run correctly. I cant wait for 24 more days. I hope you know that this place will definetly fall apart then, if it can get worse. Good luck with that. My days cant go quick enough.
We know I am a govt contractor. The rule is there always has to be govt personnel here for the staff to be able to be in the building. Makes sense but it doesn't always work out. There are 3 govt employees, me and another woman and then 40 other contractors. Me and the other woman are considered more govt since we do the admin stuff for the govt.
OK so, 2 weeks ago all 3 govt employees were off. Someone in DC was trying to get a hold of a govt employee and got no answer so she took it one step further....I wont bore you with the details but there was trouble. So the boss here (not our real boss, she is our govt boss) told us that the next time this happens that we need to call her at home at 9am and she will come in.
Oh surprise it happened again last Friday....as a side note everytone always gets sick on Friday. shocker. The boss left me a message last friday at 5:30am that she had a migraine but to call her if skanky coworker didnt come in because the 3rd employee had the day off. 9am comes and I call her house phone, noone answers. The other woman has her cell # so she calls that and it rings in her office. Nice. So I try to call her house phone again. I leave a message this time. I told her that noone was here, it was after 9am, a contract supervisor was looking for a govt employee and someones computer had crashed so I wasnt sure what to do about it.
Never heard a effin word back. All day.
The boss comes in this morning and asks if skanky girl came in Friday. I said no and read her off the list of things that went wrong on Friday. She said she didnt get my message until 12:30. Oooook and you didnt even call then? I was a bit flustered but held my cool. A little while later she comes over and says if that happens again we need to keep calling her until we get ahold of her. ARE YOU EFFIN KIDDING ME? *I* am at my job, doing your work because your staff doesnt ever work and you want me to be your alarm clock. I was FUR-I-OUS. I said ok but couldnt hold my tongue anymore. I said you know its really tough because about 5 people came through here saying how we shouldnt be working because there is no govt employees here blah blah and we have to listen to this BUT we are the ones who wont have a job in 24 more days. Not happy. I am pretty sure my voice cracked and you could tell I was shaking inside. I dont do confrontation but I couldnt take it anymore. It was like I was getting reprimanded because I came to work. Oh....she said I cant help if my staff is sick at the same time and walked away.
Well you know what, dear boss.....You suck as a boss and thats probably why I am losing my job. Its quite apparent to everyone else that this place is not run correctly. I cant wait for 24 more days. I hope you know that this place will definetly fall apart then, if it can get worse. Good luck with that. My days cant go quick enough.
Monday, July 27, 2009
My Brain: The Battlezone
I am the most indecisive person in the world. I am also a control freak. And I do not like change. These things are not working very well for me these days.
I am losing my job in 29 days, we know this. I accept this. Part of me is happy because I get to move on and I eagerly want to. I cant stand the people I work with....really I wont miss any of them or keep in contact. I am more than ready to start a new adventure and meet some new people, learn some new things. I don't have to dress up at my work now and Ive always missed that. I'm the girl who wears khaki's or cargo's because it makes me feel more dressed up than when I'm wearing jeans. So I look forward to that again. I know, I know, most people would love to wear jeans everyday.
Then there is my hours. I work 7am-3:30pm. I love getting off early but hate getting UP early. Miss M has recently started being a grown up and complaining about her 7:30pm bedtime. "No one can believe that I go to bed so early.....so and so stays up to 9:30 or even 11pm" Yeah, that already. ugh So we have moved her bedtime to 8pm, as long as the mornings aren't rough. She will be 8yrs old in about a month and shes had this bedtime forever. She will be happy if I get new hours and gets an even later bedtime. On the flip side, I feel like new hours will turn our life upside down. We eat dinner now at 5pm. Most people are just leaving work at this time. Also, The Husband goes to work even before me at 7am so now we will be working a little different hours. What if I am up late and he always wants to go to bed early? This probably wont happen because I am a sleeper and he isn't but it is a thought that has crossed my mind.
I wish I were psychic.
Everything will be OK. The amount of unemployment I get will be more than if I take a job. I found out on Friday that there is some cobra thing going on that the government will pay most of your cobra bill. You pay 35%, which is excellent and will be about the amount I pay now. So that works out. You can collect this for 9 months....I guess they are doing this because so many people have lost their jobs. It has to be an involuntary termination so I hope a contract ending falls into that category.
I still worry about the baby situation. I am so torn over this that I cried for like 2 hours last night. How can I possibly try for a baby right now when our life is about to be turned upside down? I crave stability and I need to know everything would be OK. I feel like I don't have the time to wait a year. I am not getting any younger. (Almost 35) All of my friends are done having babies and here I am wanting to start with another at this rocky time. Then I think how I am not the most fertile so we really shouldn't give up trying because it may not even happen now anyway. But what if? Then what if I do get pregnant and no one wants to hire me because I am huge. The Husband said I would have 4-5 months before I started showing. ha! Isn't he sweet. With M it was that way but I am about 50lbs heavier now and I hear its quicker with the 2nd pregnancy.
I know everything will work out, I truly believe it but it still scares me. I just feel like I don't know which way to go. These thoughts are just swirling around in my head.......over and over and over and over.
*Disclaimer: no sympathy needed, I just had to get this out. The Husband thinks I should just make up my mind and stick to it.....obviously he's never been a woman.
I am losing my job in 29 days, we know this. I accept this. Part of me is happy because I get to move on and I eagerly want to. I cant stand the people I work with....really I wont miss any of them or keep in contact. I am more than ready to start a new adventure and meet some new people, learn some new things. I don't have to dress up at my work now and Ive always missed that. I'm the girl who wears khaki's or cargo's because it makes me feel more dressed up than when I'm wearing jeans. So I look forward to that again. I know, I know, most people would love to wear jeans everyday.
Then there is my hours. I work 7am-3:30pm. I love getting off early but hate getting UP early. Miss M has recently started being a grown up and complaining about her 7:30pm bedtime. "No one can believe that I go to bed so early.....so and so stays up to 9:30 or even 11pm" Yeah, that already. ugh So we have moved her bedtime to 8pm, as long as the mornings aren't rough. She will be 8yrs old in about a month and shes had this bedtime forever. She will be happy if I get new hours and gets an even later bedtime. On the flip side, I feel like new hours will turn our life upside down. We eat dinner now at 5pm. Most people are just leaving work at this time. Also, The Husband goes to work even before me at 7am so now we will be working a little different hours. What if I am up late and he always wants to go to bed early? This probably wont happen because I am a sleeper and he isn't but it is a thought that has crossed my mind.
I wish I were psychic.
Everything will be OK. The amount of unemployment I get will be more than if I take a job. I found out on Friday that there is some cobra thing going on that the government will pay most of your cobra bill. You pay 35%, which is excellent and will be about the amount I pay now. So that works out. You can collect this for 9 months....I guess they are doing this because so many people have lost their jobs. It has to be an involuntary termination so I hope a contract ending falls into that category.
I still worry about the baby situation. I am so torn over this that I cried for like 2 hours last night. How can I possibly try for a baby right now when our life is about to be turned upside down? I crave stability and I need to know everything would be OK. I feel like I don't have the time to wait a year. I am not getting any younger. (Almost 35) All of my friends are done having babies and here I am wanting to start with another at this rocky time. Then I think how I am not the most fertile so we really shouldn't give up trying because it may not even happen now anyway. But what if? Then what if I do get pregnant and no one wants to hire me because I am huge. The Husband said I would have 4-5 months before I started showing. ha! Isn't he sweet. With M it was that way but I am about 50lbs heavier now and I hear its quicker with the 2nd pregnancy.
I know everything will work out, I truly believe it but it still scares me. I just feel like I don't know which way to go. These thoughts are just swirling around in my head.......over and over and over and over.
*Disclaimer: no sympathy needed, I just had to get this out. The Husband thinks I should just make up my mind and stick to it.....obviously he's never been a woman.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
In 34 more working days....
I wont be working.
Yeah.
I have known for about 3 months now but I havent really told anyone since this type of thing has happened before. I am a government contractor and every effin year it comes down to the wire on renewing the contract. They always know they are going to renew it but they switch companies. I have been in this position for 5 years and worked for 5 companies. It has always worked out and I have TRIPLED my pay since starting. I have been living on top of the world! I have worked 'in' this building since 1997, minus the 2 years I was a SAHM. I was married here (not literally), found out my exhusband was cheating on me while here (yes literally), went through my pregnancy and being a single mom here, got married again here and started my new life here. This place has been through it all with me.
This job has been boring to me for years but the pay rocks and so does the flexibility. There has been office politics/drama going on for the past year due to a skanky co-worker. It got really bad in the past few months to the point of I was almost in tears and taking my frustrations home with me because I was overwhelmed with work and she didnt do anything all day. This is only background to tell you that I dont love my job. I love the money and thats it.
Anyway. They have decided not to renew our contract. At all. This is 98% official. Our contract ends Sept 7....oh did I mention M's birthday is Sept 6? I'm always in such a great mood for her birthday parties not knowing how my job will play out. This year should really be a rockin party!
My pay will be cut in half (LITERALLY)when I lose this job. This is not an exageration. I get paid Washington, DC pay since my company is located there.....but I really live in Small Town, USA where you dont make any money.
We also cant forget that there goes babymaking. I carry the insurance on the family since The Husband is self employed. I could make more money staying home on unemployment rather than working but we wouldnt have any insurance. The baby thing makes me extra sad.
sigh.
Yeah.
I have known for about 3 months now but I havent really told anyone since this type of thing has happened before. I am a government contractor and every effin year it comes down to the wire on renewing the contract. They always know they are going to renew it but they switch companies. I have been in this position for 5 years and worked for 5 companies. It has always worked out and I have TRIPLED my pay since starting. I have been living on top of the world! I have worked 'in' this building since 1997, minus the 2 years I was a SAHM. I was married here (not literally), found out my exhusband was cheating on me while here (yes literally), went through my pregnancy and being a single mom here, got married again here and started my new life here. This place has been through it all with me.
This job has been boring to me for years but the pay rocks and so does the flexibility. There has been office politics/drama going on for the past year due to a skanky co-worker. It got really bad in the past few months to the point of I was almost in tears and taking my frustrations home with me because I was overwhelmed with work and she didnt do anything all day. This is only background to tell you that I dont love my job. I love the money and thats it.
Anyway. They have decided not to renew our contract. At all. This is 98% official. Our contract ends Sept 7....oh did I mention M's birthday is Sept 6? I'm always in such a great mood for her birthday parties not knowing how my job will play out. This year should really be a rockin party!
My pay will be cut in half (LITERALLY)when I lose this job. This is not an exageration. I get paid Washington, DC pay since my company is located there.....but I really live in Small Town, USA where you dont make any money.
We also cant forget that there goes babymaking. I carry the insurance on the family since The Husband is self employed. I could make more money staying home on unemployment rather than working but we wouldnt have any insurance. The baby thing makes me extra sad.
sigh.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Yay me!
I did my exercise Friday morning before we left for the weekend and I lost 1.5 lbs. I was sooooo excited. Ive never lost that much! I have been exercising 3 times per week for about a month now. Sometimes I squeeze in more time/days but realistically its only 3 times. The only thing I did differently last week was cut out some soda. I drink 2 cans of Mt Dew a day but last week I alternated days and skipped a can. Monday I drank 2 cans, Tuesday I drank 1 can and iced tea the rest of the day, Wednesday 2 cans, etc. I know water is better but tea is a happy medium for me.
The bad part? We left soon after I weighed myself. We were on the road from 10am Friday until 3pm Sunday. Thats alot of eating out, plus we went to a wedding, which equals cake. I tried to make wise choices but with eating out 3 times per day I am a little nervous that my 1.5 loss is shot.
The wedding(and weekend away)was nice. I am exhausted and wish I would have taken today off. lol
The bad part? We left soon after I weighed myself. We were on the road from 10am Friday until 3pm Sunday. Thats alot of eating out, plus we went to a wedding, which equals cake. I tried to make wise choices but with eating out 3 times per day I am a little nervous that my 1.5 loss is shot.
The wedding(and weekend away)was nice. I am exhausted and wish I would have taken today off. lol
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