Thursday, July 16, 2009

Writer's Workshop- Things about me and my Grandpa

The great MamaKat has some really good prompts this week for her Writer's Workshop. I couldnt just pick one so I did a little on 2 different prompts.

Three things that you would love to know about me


I wear my heart on my sleeves. It is impossible for me to fake stuff. It’s just not me, my emotions shine through. I hate this. Sometimes I would like to be furious at someone yet smile. I just can’t.

I am not a stuck up B word. All of my life people have thought this but its so far from the truth. I’m not sure why people don’t understand that not everyone is outgoing. Once I know you I can be the life of the party but until there is a small bond I will just be cordial. Nothing more, nothing less. I don’t let very many people into my ‘emotional space’. I have been disappointed one too many times by people that I thought were the greatest to only find out they really sucked.

I often talk about being Infertile yet I don’t go for further testing. This may seem odd to some and even to me. I feel a little hypocritical at times. How can I whine when I don’t take the next step? I have had a baby, The Husband has had kids, and we just had a miscarriage in June. I know we can have kids but it just hasn’t worked out yet. We have 3 kids together so I should consider myself lucky. And I do. I kind of feel like if it’s meant to be it will be. We will continue to try but there won’t be any drastic testing done. We will be ok, either way. I would LOVE to have a baby. A baby with The Husband. I am hoping that in the future I don’t regret not seeking further assistance but right now I am at peace with it. We have been blessed but would love 1 more blessing also.

About my Grandpa:

As my loyal readers know he just passed away on June 5th. He was my last remaining grandparent so that made it hurt even more than normal. He was such an awesome family man. Through my life I watched him go from having TONS of money to it slowly dwindling down to help family members. He hated seeing anyone in need of help. To his dying day he was still doing this even though he didn’t have much money left. Through all of my memories the thing that stands out to me the most is his love for my grandmother. They had such a special love and I can only hope to have near the love with The Husband for the rest of my living days. They were truly an inspiration. I miss them both so much but I am happy that they are now together, where they belong.

Thanks for stopping by!


Jen said...

sometimes all you can do is make peace with life. In doing this, you are many, many steps ahead of other people.

Stopped by from Mama Kat's

Staci said...

Thanks for sharing! I can relate to a few things. Mainly the stuck up thing.... I can be super out going, BUT I have to be in the mood.... If I am NOT in the mood, I am pretty quiet around peeps I don't know.... BUT if I am in a good mood and getting a good vibe.... I am a SOCIAL Butterfly! weird huh?!?

Jen said...

Love the thoughts about your grandfather - I wish mine had been around longer :( Infertility? I know more than a couple people who thought they couldn't and then ended up pregnant on their own AFTER testing & lots of other stuff. There really is a bigger hand guiding all this sometimes.

Jennifer said...

Sorry to hear about your grandpa. It sounds like he was a very great man.

Heather said...

Thanks for stoping by my neck of the woods! I really love it when things come together and the time with friends doesn't cause any real stress to get prepared.

What a wonderful tribute to your grandfather. I've still got all 4 and consider myself so blessed! I cannot imagine how hard it will be when the first one goes, let alone when you lose your last one. Such a wonderful example he set for you!


~~Mel~~ said...

I hear you on being misjudged...ppl often think I'm I'm just quiet sometimes..geesh! lol.

Your granpa was a great man...I'm glad he's with your grandma now.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for your losses.

I'm really shy at first and people always assume I'm a B until they get to know me.

Carie said...

What an amazing legacy: to have your grandchild remember how generous you were and that you loved your wife. Not many people have that legacy! I want it!

Thanks for sharing!