Sunday, December 27, 2009

Spam?

I have been blogging for over a year and have never encountered Spam until this past month. It started off one here or there but now it's a little obnoxious and I'm wondering if I should start moderating comments. I really didnt want to do that. Why would someone spam? Seems kinda pointless to me?!?!

just a random thought.........

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas!

I hope everyone has a very merry day!!

Friday, December 18, 2009

Liquid Plumber--Foaming Snake

This is a product review but I'm not getting anything to do it.....just passing along some info.

Our upstairs bathroom sink has had a slow drain to it. Like when you brush your teeth the water would build up and take awhile to go down.

I tried baking soda and vinegar and that worked for a bit but it would always go back to being slow again.

I tried the Draino stuff and that did nothing.

Last week I bought this Foaming Snake stuff by Liquid Plumber and it worked great! Haven't had any problems since. So if you ever have a slow drain make sure to try this!

(just saw the commercial which reminded me to pass on the good product review)

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Are you surprised on Christmas morning?

I am a picky person, I know this about myself. This is nothing new.

I always know all gifts that I am getting and sometime it sucks.
For my birthday The Husband gives me money and I always go buy new clothes. It's like my own little shopping spree and I enjoy the day.

This year for Christmas I am getting a ring wrap for my solitaire. I have wanted one for awhile and we found a deal that we couldn't pass up. I am also getting a few other things from him that I have picked out here and there.

I was talking to my mom on FB chat tonight and she asked me what color I liked best and gave me colors to chose from. I quickly said don't get me a Snuggie because The Husband already did. She said it wasn't a Snuggie but went on to tell me what it was!! I didn't want to know.

Monday, December 07, 2009

I can't wait to get my snuggie and randomness

brrrr its so cold! Its only 21* out and I hate being cold. I am sitting here with pajama pants on, long sleeve shirt, hoodie, socks, slippers and a blank wrapped around me. The heat was set on 73 but I just turned it up to 74. The Husband bought me a snuggie for xmas.....maybe I should try it out to make sure its comfy???

This weekend we had our first snowfall and we got about 6 inches. That's pretty impressive for us. We used to get blizzards but the past few years we rarely get measurable amounts.

The cat is still driving me effin crazy with the tree. Next year he may live in the basement for the month of December.

This weekend we had a date night (supposed to be all weekend but the snow ruined that) we shopped Fri night, went to dinner and to a movie. This is only the second adult movie we have been to in 6 years. lol It was nice.

Saturday was my dads birthday so the day contained quite a bit of crying and sadness. I was hoping shopping would occupy my mind but the snow postponed that trip and we stayed home all day.

We have a busy week ahead of us and our first holiday celebration takes place this coming weekend. From now until Xmas we have some type of get-together/event every weekend.

Oh and I finally found a book that I can read. (I get bored with most) She's come undone.....I am half way through it and actually making time to read. love it!

Friday, December 04, 2009

Check out a new blog and maybe get THE toy

by this point everyone has heard about Zhu Zhu pets. They are the 'hot item' this year. They have been compared to Cabbage Patch dolls......and we have all heard some crazy stories about people trying to get their hands on those ugly dolls. Same thing here except its a rodent.
I posted about them the other day and my frenzied search for them. I have not been able to find a gray one though so I thought I would enter this great giveaway over at Girlz A Soul Sista!

Go check it out and maybe enter to win too.

Have a great weekend. This is our last chance to shop together before Christmas....so The Husband and I will be doing that all weekend. Yay me, sucks to be him!

Thursday, December 03, 2009

My cat snores

and I love the sound of it. I had never heard a cat snore before.....or even knew they snored.

He is laying on the other end of the sofa and I can hear him.

He also loves to curl up on my lap and he nuzzles his head against something. He loves to have his eyes covered when sleeping. By the way, he is about 15 lbs now and quite bigger but he still tries to fit right in my lap.

I'm telling you all this because I love him and want you to know what a great cat he is...........

when he's not in the freakin tree!! I swear he is worse than a toddler with this year's tree. I may lock him in the basement until Christmas is over. (just kidding!!)

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

How do you decide what's best for a kid?

I have been trying to write this post all day but I would either get sidetracked or just feel overwhelmed with the thought of writing all of this out.......but I feel like I need to. My mind is going a million miles and hour and has been since Sunday.

About 6 months ago my youngest step daughter, J kept saying she wanted to come live with us. Her first reasoning was because she missed school. She was pulled from school because my other step daughter was having problems. Problems=they thought she was smarter than the rest of the kids in her grade, which she kinda is (I've never met a kid who loves to learn like her.... and this is coming from a mom with a kid on honor roll.....but she has zero social skills) anyway school teaches you many more things than book stuff......like listening, manners, respect, friendship, etc. So she went to the principals office 2 times because of her and other kids not getting along or some such nonsense. The Husband and I do not agree with their homeschooling. He was not asked about it, BabyMama did it and told him later. J cried about it and was very upset that she had to leave her friends. She loved school! BabyMama lied to them and told them that they would get to go back and play with their friends. That never happened, like you can just do that but it sounded good to the girls.

Let me give you the dynamics of BabyMama's house:
J (the youngest who wants to live with us)
older step daughter
then BabyMama and Poppy (what they call their step dad) have 2 kids, age 3 and 1.
Poppy has a daughter that is 16 (her mom died in a car wreck a few years ago so she was forced to live with them)

Obviously with all these kids they need alot of room, so they built an addition on to their house to make their 3 bedroom home into a 5 bedroom. Except it didn't really give them anymore bedrooms because 1 is Poppy's office and 1 is the home-school room. Why Poppy's office and the homeschool room cant be the same room we don't know. He is a youth pastor so its not like he needs tons of space. This leaves the adults sharing a room, Poppy's daughter having her own room and 4 kids in 1 room. J has to share a bed with the 3 year old......this kid is hell on wheels! J says she never gets to sleep and she always has circles under her eyes. So the 1yr old is in her crib, those 2 share a bed and our oldest SD is on the top bunk. J voiced this to us as reason 2 and that's what started the whole talk. The Husband told BabyMama what J had told us and that she said she wanted to live with us so she could have her own bed. Here we have 4 bedrooms.....ours, M, guest room, and the 2 SD's have bunkbeds in their room. So BabyMama said she would work on getting them another bed. and that was that.............

until last weekend! the girls were here and J was INSISTENT that she was not going home, she lived here now, etc. She told everyone this. If you talked about something in the future she said well I will be living here then. M called me mommy and J said 'and you will be my new mom too because I live here'. We were not encouraging her but at the same time we don't want to tell her she cant live here. She is more than welcome here......sadly I love her as if she was my own while my other SD is more difficult and the bond is just not there. Dont worry I fake it for her! M and J are inseparable the whole time the girls are here. They play so good together and J just idolizes M. The look in her eyes when she looks at M shows me what sister love is all about. (I don't have a sister) She will tell you that M is her favorite sister.

Another of her reasons is because she has nightmares all the time at her mom's and never here. She has actually told both of us about this at different times and we didnt put it together until we were talking Sunday night.

The Husband asked J if she wanted to talk to her mommy about this and she said yes. He asked her what she thought BabyMama would say and she said she thinks it would be ok. J said she would miss her grandma but she would get to see her and BabyMama on weekends just like she does daddy. I swear she figured all this out herself! We were just in shock. So we go to drop them off and The Husband was just going to mention that they need to talk soon. When he said this J said yeah mommy, I want to live with daddy and she was sooo excited. The other SD speaks up and tells all about J saying she wasnt coming home etc. M and I were sitting in the car, we didnt expect this to happen. So Poppy gathers the kids into the van so the parents can talk freely since its already started. BabyMama is almost in tears hearing that her child doesnt want to live with her. The Husband told her everything and she said she thought it was just the bed issue and that part of their Christmas gift is going to be a triple bunkbed. (yikes) He tells her its more than that and names all of the things J has told us. I wont get into everything........our life is night and day from their life. We are fairly mainstream while they are very much like the Duggars. They don't have cable, tell the kids how they have no money, very-very hypocritical religious people, and live a VERY simple life. I am not saying there is anything wrong with their life but its just not ours. We like nice stuff and we like to do fun stuff!
This was all Sunday at 12:30.
Sunday at 4:42 BabyMama posted on FB----is sad...meloncholy...heartsick...blue...depressed...glum...troubled...distressed...at a loss...
monday-J called The Husband while he was at work so he asked her could he call her later. She asked her mom and was told yes. J told The Husband that she got to spend time with mommy this morning doing crafts.
The Husband called her back around 4pm and there was no answer. J called back a minute later and said she couldn't talk because they were going swimming in the indoor pool. Now as you saw I am FB friends with BabyMama and I know that she posts how they never actually go to the YMCA and their membership was a waste etc. It sounds like they are kissing up to her, which I guess is ok but we aren't going to change how we do things....its not a competition. We know that will get old and wont last.
I feel so helpless. We don't want to take a child away from her mother. We only want whats best for her but how do you decide what is best? She loves being girlie and I let her wear makeup in the house as long as we aren't going anywhere.......her mom will not let her do this. We feel like she is being stifled at her house......she cant be her. No one asked how she felt about going to school.
Ok now I am rambling and this is long enough. I don't think this will turn into a full custody dispute because its very important for The Husband that they get along.......but he wants whats best for her and her future........not the adults, just her.
It was last left at J would spend more time at our house without her other sister so that she could get a feel for being away from them. This isn't going to portray our real life though. We have school, sports, daycare.
There is just so much and its all I can think about, yet there is nothing I can do.

These damn Zhu Zhu pets!

are going to drive me CA-RA-ZY!

Yesterday while in a different city taking my mom to a dr's appointment, I stopped by a ToysRus (ours went out of business) and the guy said the sold out that morning. ugh! I now that Target gets shipments on Mondays so I decided to run in there too. Nope. The sales lady said people line up at the door on days they get shipments......even though there is no guarantee that there will even be any of these rodents on the truck. People line up for nothing? They open at 8am and that's the time I take M to school or I would go waste my time too, just every now and then. ;)

Ok so rumor has it that these fake rodents will be making their debut at another store this Sunday. I told my mom and she said maybe we should check there. I said no, its not until Sunday. I come home and read that someone on a message board bought one at this store......not this exact store but the chain. The Husband is ready to camp out over night Saturday to be in line to get one of these things. So I called 3 stores last night.....1 said nope not ever selling them and don't bother calling the other stores (me thinks she is keeping them for her kids, lol) store 2 said yes we got an email saying we would sell them in December but haven't gotten any yet, store 3 asked what in the world these things are because everyone keeps asking about them.

Now today I am a tracker up in a window. This thing tells me when one is in stock anywhere on the internet. Its went off 3 times already this morning but when I click add to cart it says sold out. So I'm guessing everyone is using this tracker or they are only adding 1 fake rodent at a time.......its the same website that sells out in 1 minute.

All of this and she probably wont even play with this thing for 1 week.
The things parents do........

Monday, November 23, 2009

Day 20, 21, 22 and 23

haha, I think about it but never make it around to doing it.

Friday- I was thankful for New Moon. LOVED IT! It was so much better than Twilight!

Saturday- I was thankful for getting alot of stuff done around the house. It seems that since I'm off I always think 'oh I can do that tomorrow' and then tomorrow becomes the next day etc. Really, like laundry and taking stuff back to the library. I am such a slacker since being a SAHM.

Sunday- I was very thankful to sleep until 10:30 am. TEN THIRTY! That was amazing. We did a little Christmas shopping for my step daughters and then had a nice dinner out. great day!

Monday- Today I am thankful for our cat. Really he is M's cat that we got for her 2 Christmas' ago. I love him so much!! He lays on my lap and curls himself up in a ball. He likes to hide his head when he is sleeping. AND he snores! I swear. I have never heard a cat snore before but he does!! He is so love-able and playful. I cant imagine our life without him......he brings us all so much joy. (and I'm not a crazy animal lover)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Day 18 and 19

Day 18-
I am thankful for Firefox. I downloaded it because I liked the preview feature it offers. Honestly I don't use the feature that much but FF seems to run much faster than IE. I uploaded pics to FB yesterday in less than half the time it used to take me in IE.

Day 19-I am thankful for my Sedu flat iron. I love this thing. I use it almost every single day. The Husband bought it for me 3-4 yrs ago and it has been one of the best things he ever bought.....for me at least! My hair has a natural frizz to it....not enough for curl, just enough to be annoying. Its raining today so my hair is extra frizzy. Or it was until I flat ironed it. ;)

Have a great day!!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Day 16 and 17

Day 16- I am thankful for my daughter. I know this is kind of a given for most people but it's extra special for people who struggle with Infertility. Sunday at the Cheer Exhibition I was overcome with emotion. I seriously thought I was going to cry, for no reason. The program hadn't even begun and I was just in awe of how brave my baby girl was. I was just so proud of her. My shy, tiny baby is now a blossoming young lady. She is an excellent student and always tries her best. All of her teachers love her. She put her all into everything she does. She just melts my heart! I may never have another baby but this baby sure does give me the warm fuzzies.

Day 17- I am thankful for headbands. I hate my new haircut. Really its just the extra layer she put in.......it drives me crazy!! So until it grows out my hair will have something in it, which is so unlike me!

This is part of Serenity Now's 27 days of Thankful.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Catch-up.....Day 13,14 and 15

Apparently it is just too much for me to blog every single day. lol

Day 13, Friday-I am thankful for the love my daughter and step daughters share. Even though this isn't my ideal situation......something I thought my life would be.......when I hear them play and giggle it makes all the nonsense of blended families go away.


Day 14, Saturday-I am thankful for a beautiful day. I LOVE sunshine.....even if its not that warm. I love wearing sunglasses and just being outside.

Day 15, Sunday-I am thankful that my daughter will be cheering in her first Cheer Exhibition. We are so excited and full of energy today. A few more hours and she will be cheering in front of 1000+ people. My shy baby.......

Hope everyone had a great weekend! Gotta go curl M's hair!!!!!!

This is part of Serenity Now's 27 days of Thankful.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Writers Workshop- The Punishment

My brother and I used to walk from the bus stop to our house. I remember many times my mom being there but I guess as we got older we were allowed to make the long trek home alone. This wasn't a typical bus stop/walk home like most people would think. This was mostly straight uphill and 1 mile long. Seriously sucky! I am 6 yrs older than my brother, which means my legs are longer and I could walk faster. lol

It seemed like he kept us going at such a slooooow pace. I would walk as usual and then have to stop to wait up for him.....like the good sister I am.

Speaking of being a good sister......Apparently one day I got tired of his slowness and tired of waiting around. What else is a girl to do? Like any normal person would do.....I picked up a rock and threw it in his direction. In his direction equalled hitting him square in the head. OH MY GOD. I was for sure that I just killed my brother and here we were in the middle of nowhere, no one around and blood is squirting out of his head. OMG. I was frantically apologizing, thinking this is my last words to him or something. So I rushed him down the driveway (we were halfway home) to the nearest neighbors house. I don't remember what happened after that until the point where we got him medical attention. I am still shook up and so sorry. My parents thought I needed to be really sorry, I guess. They made me sit in the room while he got his head stitched up. That was some serious punishment!

We both made it out alive.
I don't think I threw any rocks after that and he has no brain damage or anything.
Yikes!

This has been part of Mama Kat's Writer Workshop.

Day 11 and 12

Day 11 is a follow up to day 10 when I went to M's school.
M and B have been friends since they were 2 yrs old. They both went to the same daycare and since entering school they have been in the same class for 2 years. I love hanging out with these girls! Madison doesnt call B her BFF.....B has a older sister who M calls her BFF but I would say its the other way around. Earlier this year I went on a field trip and had B in my group to chaperone. The girls were so happy! So while at school this week I kinda just sat back and watched them. I watched them whisper and giggle, I watched them make eye contact and not have to say a word, yet know what the other was saying. The teacher allowed B to go to the bookfair with me and M while the rest of the class went outside for reccess. When an adult came to the bookfair you could enter your child to win a poster.....so I entered both girls. Also, your child got a free bookmark and pencil.....I got one for both girls. I love these girls and their friendship! I kinda sat back and envisioned a life time full of friendship for them.
I am thankful my daughter has such great friends that she may know all her life!

Day 12- I am thankful for The Husband being home today. We lazed around this morning, went to lunch and did a tiny bit of Christmas shopping and browsing for ideas. It was very nice and unexpected! We went months without being alone and now this is the second time in days.

This is a part of Serenity Now's 27 days of Thankful.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Day 9 and 10

Hmm this blogging every day isn't working out very well. lol I am thinking of my positives and what I am thankful for but I just don't make time to blog about it. I thought about not blogging last night while I was laying in bed. Oh well, combining days is better than not doing it at all.

Day 9- I am very thankful for the compliment the Cheer coach gave me about M. There are 2 coaches and I have become friends with 1 of them......the other is just more of a 'hi, how are you?' kind of thing. This coach came up to me out of nowhere and told me how great M is and how she is so good at cheerleading. The friend coach had told me before that M is 1 of 3 cheerleaders that are the best.....there are 16 girls on the squad. I am so proud of my baby. *I* didn't really want her to do cheer, this was something daddy suggested. I thought she would be too shy but that has not been the case at all. My kid really rocks!

Day 10- Today I am thankful for having the time to go volunteer at the book fair. M is always so excited when I will be at school......she may be driving her teacher crazy today by talking about it.

Head on over to Serenity Now for some more thankfulness!

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Day 7 and Day 8

I don't usually get on the computer much during the weekend and if I do I stick to Facebook and email. Soooo lets play a little catch up on my past 2 days of happy's.

Day 7- I am very thankful that The Husband and I could spend the day together. Alone. We haven't been childless since September when we went out for my birthday with friends. I love road trips so we got up early to start the big adventure. We dropped M off with my mom (its on the way) and traveled 2 hrs to a big Outlet Mall. People take tour buses to this place, which I found odd, but whatever. Anyway the car ride, being alone, holding hands and just trying our hardest to enjoy each other while we had alone time......it was so nice. We did some Christmas shopping so that's a plus! On the way home we stopped to eat and had the BEST dinner. I don't know if its because I was hungry or just because of having a good day.....yummo! We both got steak and loaded mashed potatoes. I'm not a huge steak eater but this was delicious! After dinner we went into a Target just to walk around......The Husbands idea!

Day 8- today we just kinda lazed around. We watched our first Christmas movie tonight. I love (and am thankful) for those quiet family times of snuggling together. It's so peaceful.

Hope you had a great weekend too! Head on over to Serenity Now for some more happyness!

Friday, November 06, 2009

Day 6 of being thankful

Today has been more of a struggle coming up with the good but I'm here and doing it.

The day started off with me trying to get Taylor Swift tickets and they sold out in 5mins. I was on the site at 9:45am and the tickets didn't go on sale until 10am. The site locked up and by 10:05am they were all sold out. UGH!

The positive is that when I told M she wasn't upset. She didn't know about the concert until I told her this afternoon. It was going to be a Christmas gift.

Then I had an interview at 1pm and the pay (and hours) were laughable. I make more on unemployment!

The positive to this is that this was my first interview in 6 yrs so I am glad that I didn't waste it on a job I would be really interested in. I learned alot and will feel more comfy next time I have an interview.

Hope your weekend is off to a good start! Head on over to Sernity Now for some more happyness!

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Day 5 of being thankful

I have a good one today....actually a few.

I started the day off with dropping M at school and then off to Target I went. I got us some 75% off Halloween shirts for next year and a table runner. Love cheap stuff! I went to a few more stores and then went to get my hair cut. Last stop was grocery shopping. Usually I hate it but today was ok for some reason. Maybe it wasn't crowded or maybe I was just having a good day.
I am very thankful to shop without anyone. I know thats weird but I like to look at whatever I want to look at and just wander around aimlessly.
(There are times I like people to go along also)

To end the day......

I got a call for an INTERVIEW which will be tomorrow (Friday) at 1pm. I am not crazy over the hours at all. I was quite spoiled with my last job.....hours and money wise. I am just excited that I actually heard something from a job. I have even went back to double check that my phone # was correct on my resume after so long of no contact from jobs. Its that bad out there, people.
So I am nervous, excited, happy, scared, etc but most of all I am thankful for a chance to interview. I haven't interviewed in 6 yrs. wow.

Head on over to Serenity Now for some more happiness!

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Day 4 of being thankful

This morning I was asked to review some bad events that happened in June. You know... the miscarriage and my grandfather's death. Horrific, both of them.

Anyway, while updating this person I really realized what a great group of girls I know. I will probably never meet them because they live all over the country, and some in other countries. We have known each other for years, 8 years to be exact. When I joined a message board for Single Mom's on a popular site......I had no idea I would share my daughters whole life with them. Some of these girls were there when my daughter was a crazy fit throwing toddler, others helped me blend my family, some you just connect instantly with. I had no clue that they would know I was pregnant even before my mom did. They have seen me through good times and bad times, ups and downs, a crazy roller coaster ride of life and they still love me unconditionally. And I them.

I am so thankful to have these girls!!

Head over to Serenity Now and join in on the Happy thoughts!

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

27 days of Thankful (late to the party)

While catching up with blogs today I saw this great post about counting to Thanksgiving by saying what you were thankful for each day. A few things made me jump on this little party....

1. This place hasn't been the happiest since my lay off so its about time we bring some more sunshine back in here.

2. I will really enjoy counting my blessings and listing happy things.....you know positive thinking and stuff.

3. Hopefully it makes me blog more.

4. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Thanksgiving so it will be nice to have a countdown.

Ok lets get started.

(catching up by thinking back)
Day 1- I was thankful for having a wonderful holiday weekend with my family.

Day 2- We had cheer practice, which gave me a reason to be out of the house and socialize. I am thankful for getting to know a few moms better.....they are great girls and our friendships will go beyond cheer.

Day 3- I am VERY thankful for the rave review that M's teacher gave at the Parent/Teacher conference today. 3rd grade has been a huge adjustment in our house for many reasons. M is still doing well and is in the top Math and Reading groups but its just harder for her. The teacher reassured us that the transition from 2nd-3rd is hard for many because in 2nd they are babied and 3rd they are on their own......they have more responsibilities. That will help us so much to work with M on being more independent. She is such a great kid, in school and out!

Head over to Serenity Now and join in on the Happy thoughts!

Monday, November 02, 2009

Ahh Sunday dinner and leftover

Yesterday I made a roast in the crock pot and it was yummy, as usual. Love making this because I don't have to do anything yet it feels like we are having a big meal. I also made homemade mashed potatoes.....gravy and the whole nine yards. There wasn't much roast left over but there was alot of potatoes. Yum, I was looking forward to my 'comfort food' lunch on Monday. I put it in containers right after dinner but it was still too hot to put in the fridge.

See where this is going?

The first thing I see this morning is the 2 lovely containers still sitting on the counter. ugh. lol I have no idea how I missed them......I always turn on a light in the kitchen and double check the lock near the kitchen door before I go to bed.

Hope everyone had a great Halloween! We had a nice time, I dressed up and it was alot of fun, the kids got tons of candy (my thighs love this part). We didn't get to do the Haunted House because the fire dept that was hosting it held a memorial for a fire fighter who was killed in an awful crime earlier in the week. The kids didn't mind and it wasn't a second thought.

Friday, October 30, 2009

I love Holidays!

I am sooo excited for all that the weekend holds. I am probably just as excited, if not more, than the kids!

Tonight we will start off by going to a Haunted House at the local Fire Dept with a friend and her son. I hope noone gets too scared but I think it will be tame. Its part of the towns festivities, which are for kids, so it should be low key. M has been getting into spookier stuff (thanks daddy) and has asked about going to a Haunted House. I was so excited when my friend mentioned it so I could fulfill her wish of scary stuff.

We will continue on to trick or treating at the town's businesses. They shut down Main Street and most of the businesses give out candy. Its super fun and we have done it for years. Remember I live in Small Town, USA so this is also a chance for M to see her friends all dressed up since most people attend this event. They also have games and a costume contest. Fun!

Dinner tonight will be Mummy Dogs and Halloween Cookies.....lol not sure of what else I am making. I'm currently looking online for a spooky side dish. Dinner will be made and ready to be re-heated when we come home tonight.

All 3 girls should be here by 3pm so we have an hour to get all costumed up.

Tomorrow night will be more trick or treating around our neighborhood. Its kind of alot of ToT but my step daughters don't get to participate in holidays so when we have them we go all out. Last year was the first year they ever dressed up (because it was our weekend).....their mom doesn't allow Halloween or Santa etc. If you know me than you know this is so laughable since I LOVE HOLIDAYS! I already have the Christmas spirit popping through. I strive to make every holiday special and full of spirit!! (if you hadn't noticed by my backgrounds changing with each holiday) Oh and I am dressing up tomorrow night too!!
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Monday, October 26, 2009

A little sleep HERE and a little sleep THERE

then repeat.

The night started off going to bed at 10pm. We talked and finally fell asleep closer to 12.

M got up at 3am saying her side hurt and her tummy felt sick. So in my sleep deprived state I took her back to her room and laid in bed with her, rubbing her head and back. Dasher, the cat, usually sleeps with her and apparently I was not going to get in his way. M has a daybed....so I'm snuggled to her, with my legs curled and he lays right at the curl so I couldn't move my legs.

This went on for 2 hrs until 5am when The Husband was getting up. I don't remember hearing his alarm but when I went back to our bed he was getting dressed. I don't think I talked to him but I do remember my legs hurting. lol I get in my bed and stretch out. The Husband comes back to bed for a little snuggle and that's all I remember.

The alarm went off at 7:20 and I only hit it once. Little Miss M was still sound asleep but said she felt fine so I'm not sure what was up with her side/tummy.

I am a bed hopper.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Still not enough hours in the day

When I lost my job, 1 1/2 months ago, I imagined having all the time in the world.......

I was going to have a spotless house
be able to participate in all kinds of bloggy things that I never had time for
work on all kinds of projects around the house
volunteer in M's classroom
keep up with reading blogs and my message boards

you get the point.
Yeah. Still no time.

Here is how my day goes now:

7:30-wake up after hitting snooze 2 times
8:05-walk M into school
8:15- home, back in PJ's, turn on Good Morning America and catch up on FB....maybe make something to eat
9:00- Regis and Kelly while looking around online for jobs
10:00- Dr Phil.....AND a few days this has been my nap time
11:00- get up and do SOMETHING because I feel bad that Ive been on the sofa since I dropped M off.
12:00- oh lunch time while watching the news and on FB to see if anything is new
1:00-maybe do laundry and actually send out the resumes to the jobs I scoped out earlier
2:00- misc
3:00-pick up M from school

this is a very typical day. I am sooooooooo much more disorganized now that I'm not working. I work much better when I have a routine and schedule. I even forgot the other day was a Spirit Day at school. I NEVER forget those kinds of things. I have a calendar with all my junk in it.....I don't even update that anymore.

Next week will be a new week and I will get back on track!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I miss....

sleeping with my husband. It's 12:30 and he went to bed at 10pm. I am not one bit tired. When I was working we went to bed together and woke up around the same time too.

I realllllly miss that.

Yeah I could get up with him and try to stay up but I know that wont work. I would be back to sleep and miss taking M to school or something.

Need job. Miss my routine.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Yay Me, I won (and a BabyMama vent)

The oh so cute Ashley had a giveaway recently and I WON! Go over to her blog to see my prize.....I picked the Edward one, of course. I may wear it to the midnight showing of New Moon. (I am debating this)

On to the BabyMama. I'm sure you know this is the step kids mom. The oldest came here with a HORRIBLE cough that I knew nothing about. I asked The Husband if he knew and he said yeah. Nice. This kinda changes our weekend plans since we will be sitting out in the 30-40 degree temps tomorrow and had the day planned out around all of us attending the game.
*I* don't want her sitting out in the cold. He didn't think of that. He's a guy though so we will let it pass.

Now her mother, yeah she should know better.......this is the 2nd round of antibiotics because the cough wont go away. No one can tell me what she was diagnosed with just that she has a cough and is on Amoxicillin.

Again, why do I care? Both girls came here in FLIP FLOPS. Its 42 degrees out today. Cold, misty, dreary, cold, and a miserable day. FLIP FLOPS. Maybe she can wear those while she sits outside tomorrow morning. *rolling eyes*

Sometimes its hard being a step mom and dealing with stupidity.
(I will save the story of 4 kids in 1 room for another day......that was a big topic last weekend.)

Monday, October 12, 2009

Pumpkin Apple Streusel Muffins

these are SOOO yummy. Yummy like I can eat almost all of them myself. Yummy like I made them yesterday at dinner time and they are 1/2 gone by now. (I'm showing restraint or they would be all gone)

On to the recipe.....Oh, can you tell I love fall foods?

Pumpkin Apple Streusel Muffins

INGREDIENTS
2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
2 cups white sugar
1 tablespoon pumpkin pie spice (I was out so I used cinnamon and ginger..1/2 each)
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt
2 eggs, lightly beaten
1 cup canned pumpkin puree
1/2 cup vegetable oil
2 cups peeled, cored and chopped apple

Topping:
2 tablespoons all-purpose flour
1/4 cup white sugar
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
4 teaspoons butter

DIRECTIONS
Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Lightly grease 18 muffin cups or use paper liners.
In a large bowl, sift together 2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour (I dont sift), 2 cups sugar, pumpkin pie spice, baking soda and salt. In a separate bowl, mix together eggs, pumpkin and oil. Add pumpkin mixture to flour mixture; stirring just to moisten. Fold in apples. Spoon batter into prepared muffin cups.
In a small bowl, mix together 2 tablespoons flour, 1/4 cup sugar and 1/2 teaspoon cinnamon. Cut in butter until mixture resembles coarse crumbs. Sprinkle topping evenly over muffin batter.
Bake in preheated oven for 35 to 40 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted into a muffin comes out clean.

Go visit Tempt my Tummy Tuesday for more yummy food!
recipe from: http://allrecipes.com/recipe/pumpkin-apple-streusel-muffins/detail.aspx

18 years ago today....

I lost my dad. I was always quite a daddy's girl until my parents started having marital problems and separated. I played the teen role of choosing who will let me party more. The lucky winner was my mom.

On this specific day, 18 yrs ago, I was in my room getting ready to go out. I had just turned 17.... 2 weeks before and thought I was too cool for the world. You know the teen attitude. My dad came to pick my brother up for visitation, he came in my room and tried to talk to me while I was getting ready. We had a little small talk and then he went to leave. He told me he loved me and I didn't say it back. At that time I had no idea that this moment would haunt me for the rest of my life.

He left, I went out, life continued as usual. Until 4am when someone called my mom and said that my dad had died. I can still envision the 15 min ride, going 100mph, to get to my dad because surely we could save him. My mom was a frantic mess.....they married young so she was only 36 and was now dealing with this. At my age now, almost the same age as her then, I just can not imagine having a teen, a tween and her husband dying.

I remember all of it yet at the same time it all seems like a blur. For years, even now sometimes, I couldn't even talk about my dad without crying. I missed him soooo much. It wasn't fair that my brother had to give me away at my (first) wedding. It wasn't fair that he hasn't been able to see his grandchildren. Its still not fair that my brother and I don't have a dad to go to. To talk to, to confide in, to get advise from, to go visit, to call, to love.

Maybe this wasn't such a good idea to write.
I was fine until I started typing this and now I am crying.
It just hurts and it sucks.
I know plenty of people have lost their parents but I'm immature and like to stomp my feet and wonder why it had to happen to me.


(disclaimer: I'm not indulging in the whole story but wanted to say my brother was safe and sound when this event happened)

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

WFMW-Cleaning Edition

I am a spreadsheet geek. Gotta have spreadsheets for everything. I don't know what I did before spreadsheets. I use them to track spending, when I coach soccer, for phone lists and for CLEANING. Yep, I said Cleaning.

I have a room tab and in there I list everything that I would like to do to that room and then I enter the date in another row....

Master Bedroom
dust
change sheets
clean ceiling fan and ceiling
purge clothes
file papers
touch up paint

You get the hint. I don't really use this for everyday kind of stuff. Its more for deeper cleaning so that I can keep track of when I last did something. Some of this stuff is done weekly, some is done monthly, etc. It may seem complicated but it works for me!
Go visit We are THAT family for more cleaning tips.

Fall Recipes

Last week I made a delicious fall dinner! Some people on Facebook asked for the recipes so I thought I would share with everyone.

First off I made Spiced Pork Chops. We had never had any meat with cinnamon but thought it sounded interesting.

SPICED PORK STEAKS
6 boneless center loin pork steaks
2 tbsp. all-purpose flour
1 tsp. cinnamon
1/2 tsp. ginger
1/4 tsp. nutmeg (I skipped because I didn't have any)
1/4 tsp. salt
1/4 tsp. pepper
1 tbsp. butter
1 tbsp. vegetable oil
Trim and discard all exterior fat from each pork steak. On a piece of wax paper, combine flour, cinnamon, ginger, nutmeg, salt and pepper. Dredge pork in flour mixture.
In large skillet over medium heat, saute pork steaks in butter and oil, turning occasionally until browned and cooked through, about 20 minutes. Makes 6 servings.
found here: http://www.cooks.com/rec/doc/0,1827,152162-251197,00.html

Then continuing with the fall-ish theme I made Baked Apples for the first time. I have had them one other time and The Husband said he likes them. Friends of ours own, who own an apple orchard, had just given us a bag of apples so this worked out well. This recipe had a little more of an apple crisp taste due to a little doughyness (made up word) from the flour.

BAKED SLICED APPLES
4 c. sliced apples
1 c. sugar
3/4 c. flour
1 stick butter
1/2 c. water
Pinch of salt
Dash of cinnamon
Place apples in baking dish 9x13. Mix sugar, flour and butter until crumbly; sprinkle over apples. Add water, salt and cinnamon. Bake at 350 degrees until done and slightly brown.
Yields: 12 servings.
found here:http://www.cooks.com/rec/view/0,1813,150184-236205,00.html

Then to top it off I made some Pumpkin Muffins for dessert. This is the easiest thing to make and we love them. They are very low in calories too....so plus for moms! I had to search for a recipe to post because its really only 2 ingredients so I just mix and go. You can also use any type of cake mix. This time I used Devils Food.

2 Ingredient Pumpkin Muffins
18 ounces spice cake mix
15 ounces pumpkin (not pumpkin pie mix)
Directions
Simply mix the pumpkin and the spice cake mix together until well combined.
Spoon into paper lined small muffin/cupcake tins, 2/3 full. (The batter is very thick and doesn't "settle", so you may wish to smooth the tops if you care what the finished product looks like!).
Bake at 350* 18-22 minutes or until a knife comes out clean. (130 calories each)
found here: http://www.recipezaar.com/2-Ingredient-Pumpkin-Muffins-260781

Hope you enjoy as much as we did! For other recipes go visit Tasty Tuesday and Tempt My Tummy Tuesday.

Friday, October 02, 2009

A little happiness.....

surprise, surprise! lol

M did a paper at school that just melts my heart so I thought I would share it with you. I copied it just as she wrote it (except her name, of course) even the punctuation and spelling.

My full name is xxxx
I was born on Sept. 6, 2001
My favorite subject at school is Music
If I could go anyplace in the world it would be Pariss. (lol dont know where that came from)
When I grow up I want to be a vetrinarian
My favorite animal is dog
A hobby I enjoy is Watching T.V.
My favorite meal is Mac&Cheese
The best thing about me is I'm just like my mom!
The next best thing about me is Two cool sister
I think I am really good at writing
I think I need to improve at tieing my shoes

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Writers Workshop-Finding Bliss

This week MamaKat has some great prompts to write about. I could have chose any of them but since I've been mentally exhausted lately I thought we should go with that theme.

My regular readers just clicked the little red X.

The Prompts:
4.) Have you found your bliss? What path did you take to get there? or are you still searching

I am still searching with the help of the greatest husband alive. God bless him and his patience!

I like to have hormonal pity parties and cry about how I don't have this or that. I like to rant and rave about the smallest things. Lately I have turned into a miserable monster.

In the past 3 months I have lost my job, lost a baby and lost my last grandparent. These things really do suck but there isn't anything I can do to bring any of this back. Nothing. If I could I definitely would but its just not possible.

I have to remember that some stuff is out of my control and that's hard for me.
I have to remember that everyone does not have to do things the way that I want them to do it.
I have to remember that everything doesnt have to be perfect.
I have to remember that life does not revolve around me.
I have to remember that I may have been spoiled as a child but real life isn't like that. People don't have to just do things......*I* have to work for it. Just as I work at being a great mom, I need to make that attempt at life.
I also have to remember to keep a positive attitude and squash the negative thoughts. This is such a battle sometimes and it is exhausting but its very important.

There are many things that I want to change about life right now and only I can do it. I like to preach to people that they are the author of their own book......noone else can write it for them. I should really practice what I preach.

Better days are waiting for me.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Wordless Wednesday

Head over to these blogs to see more Wordless Wednesday..... Three Peas in a Pod and Wordless Wednesday

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Homemade Beef Stroganoff

Head on over to Balancing Beauty and Bedlam to check out some great recipes for Tasty Tuesday. I found this recipe years ago and thought it was a great variation to the Hamburger Helper I had been making. Around this time I decided to expand our menu and make more homemade food. We love it and I hope you enjoy too!

INGREDIENTS
1 (12 ounce) package egg noodles, cooked and drained
1 onion, chopped (I use onion powder because I dont like onions...this means I skip the butter too and just season the ground beef with the powder)
1/4 cup butter
2 pounds lean ground beef
4 tablespoons all-purpose flour
2 cups beef broth
1 cup sour cream
salt and black pepper to taste

DIRECTIONS
Bring a large pot of water to a boil. Cook egg noodles in boiling water until done. Drain.

Meanwhile, prepare the sauce. In a large skillet, cook onions in 2 tablespoons of butter over medium heat until soft; remove from pan.
Using the same pan, melt remaining butter. Cook ground beef in melted butter until browned. Mix in flour. Stir in beef broth, and cook until slightly thickened. Add onion mixture; stir in sour cream. Season to taste with salt and pepper. Continue cooking until sauce is hot, but not boiling. Serve sauce over egg noodles.

Monday, September 28, 2009

A battle in the mind

So last night when I was wide awake at 1am I thought about blogging. And then I thought about not blogging. That made me think about what I really wanted to do with this blog. As you all know I am in the middle of a nervous breakdown. I feel like I have no control over anything and I don't like it. I have insomnia. I've never had insomnia....I am a sleeper. Sleepers don't lie awake hours after the rest of the house has gone to sleep. Sleepers don't lay on the sofa at 1am watching mindless TV.

So right now I am trying to decide if I want to keep this blog all sunny or if I want to make it real life. I am leaning towards making a private blog and just saying what I need to say and hoping the answers come to me through my writing. The only problem with that is.....I'm talking to myself and I barely keep up with this blog. It would be non existent if I started another one.

Yet another life decision. ha! (as if they were all that easy)

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Happy Birthday to ME!! (and a special gift)

Another year older, another year wiser....right?

My mom took the day off work and we went shopping. We had planned to go further away but I had to be back to get M from school so we went where my mom lives. We just kinda browsed the stores. I have birthday money to spend and couldn't find anything I liked. Isn't that how it always is? I wont even tell you about me searching every store in this city for a pair of jeans. That would take way too long ;)

We had lunch and just talked. This was the first time my mom and I have been alone....just me and her since Madison was born. It was nice. I came home and The Husband ordered pizza (we will go out this weekend for a nice dinner) and he (and M) also made me a cake. Red Velvet, my fave!!

Now lets talk about something special.

To cut to the story.....my mom was by my grandfathers side every second in his last week. Remember I was having a miscarriage that week so I wasn't there and it still hurts me that it happened that way. So he died on June 5 and my mom was talking to him about how my nieces birthday was June 10 and she would take him to her house so he could celebrate with us. At this point we didn't think he would die. He literally took a turn for the worse in 12 hrs and that was it. So they are talking about birthdays and he said Helen's birthday was July something......Helen is a little old lady that he met in his assisted living apartment where he lived after my grandma died. Then the conversation went on to M's birthday and my birthday being in Sept, etc. Later on my mom was going to the gift shop and my grandpa told her to get a birthday card. My mom bought it and gave it to him.....the whole time she is thinking it was for Helen.

It was for me. And she saved it for me until today. It wasnt for M, it wasnt for Helen, or my cousin who has a birthday a day before me......it was for me.
Inside it says.....
Lil,
Happy Birthday
Love, Grandpop

The Lil part is because my grandparents ALWAYS called me Lily. Noone knows why, they just did and it was special to me. I can still hear my grandmother saying Lil in my head all the time and she died 5 yrs ago. Lil upset me more than getting the card. He also put his last money he had in his wallet in the card. I feel like I should spend that on something special.

I didn't open the card until I got home because my mom told me it would upset me. She was right.....I cant think about it without fighting tears. I miss my grandparents so much!!
I also have a strong need to have a little girl so I can name her Lily.
sigh.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Party Update

I know you guys are just on the edge of your seats waiting to hear how the party went. I planned to write this yesterday but the days are getting away from me.

Ok so when we left off it was only Ava coming. The original plans were for the party to just be M's friends and no cousins/sisters/family....just a few friends and mommy and daddy. Well when we saw only Ava was coming we decided that the stepkids would go also. That involved some planning with their mom and switching things around. Ok done.

Until Friday night at 9pm when Brandi and Tanya (sisters) mom calls and says they will be coming. She had told me earlier that she wasn't sure because they had alot of stuff going on that day. Didn't expect her to wait until the last minute, I assumed they weren't coming. Ok, not happy because it just messed up stuff and now we would have to take 2 cars because the stepkids had to go home right after the movie. I got over it because these are M's BFF's and we would make it work.

I order tickets online that night....afterall there is only a few short hours until the party begins. It was opening weekend and I didn't know if it would sell out. We never go to movies right when they come out so I wanted to make sure we got in.

Great, done.

Get up Sat am and get ready for M's first time cheering. 3 kids up, fed, dressed, hair pretty and out the door at 11am but wait......I have a missed call on my phone that I notice as we are walking out the door. (note my new cell doesn't ring loud enough for me!) I listen to the message and its Hannah's mom saying that Hannah couldn't decide if she wanted to come to the party or not and she just decided that morning that she wanted to. OH REALLY? I was not happy. I also know that Hannah was only coming because Tonya decided to come (these 2 are drama-ish mean girls that I don't really like but tolerate).....so I am ranting and raving on the way to the game. I was Team Mom at the game which means I had to take all the little girls to the bathroom if they had to go....so again preoccupied. Let's not forget The Husband and 2 step kids that I am trying to enjoy the game with while being proud of my shy baby cheering!

Hannah's mom had called again. I tell The Husband that I need to call this woman back so she doesn't bother me. He said not to worry about it that I am busy etc. We get home at 1pm and kids are to arrive at 1:30. 1:40 and the sisters get here. Movie starts at 2:20 and we have a 20 min drive.

Ok we are waiting for Ava. Car pulls up and we are ready to leave. Oh wait, its not Ava....its HANNAH! WTF? I was not in the mood for this and these people were kinda ruining my day. So I had to be a Witch. I go out and I'm like uh hi. The father says blah blah the mother had called several times and I corrected him by saying she called 2 times that morning (she was right there in the car) and we were at Cheer. I told him that since they didn't RSVP I didn't have a ticket for Hannah. He asks if he can give me money for her ticket. Smoke is coming out my ears at this point because this family is acting so entitled......the kid decides hours before the party and the dad wants to buy her in while the mother is sitting in the car just staring at me through the window? UGH. It was not about the money. I told him I didn't know if it was sold out and I couldn't risk taking her and not getting her in. It was a very awkward confrontation and I was glad to see Ava's mom pull up. I went to get stuff from her and she saw what was going on. She kept telling me not to feel bad because they didn't RSVP......the kid is right in the car and I'm sure she thinks this is all MY fault she isn't going.

This is long enough.....they gave me a card and said they would just go. We got to the movies right as the previews were ending so we didn't miss anything. M got to pick where she wanted (up front, blah) and had a good time. I cried during the movie because I was emotionally exhausted. Got home, kids played, opened gifts, felt bad that Hannah gave a $20 gift card.....furious these parents put me in this position. Kids left, Ava stayed for dinner and left at 7pm.............best of all.............

M told me at the end of the day that I was the best mommy in the world.
(I still feel bad though)

Friday, September 18, 2009

Busy Weekend ahead!

Today I am cleaning....ok well right now I am watching The View because Kate (J+K+8) is on....but there is cleaning going on today.

Day 2 of Unemployment is going better than Day 1. Yesterday it kinda hit me that this was for real. The control freak in me really didn't like that. So I cried. What else is there to do? :)

So the stepkids come over today then in the morning M's first game is at 11:30 so we need to be ready to leave by 11am. I am soooo excited to see her cheer tomorrow. We should be home by 1pm, luckily, because her party starts at 1:30pm. You know the party that STILL only 1 person RSVPed too. We wont even talk about that though. I am sad for her and pissed off at the stupid parents. RSVP means say yes or no, either way. Idiots. This is like 5 different parents. U-G-H.

Ok back on track.....party at 1:30, leave for movies that start at 2:20. Take stepkids home so they can go to church Sunday am. Sunday we will pick them up from church on our way to a family cookout/get together that is an hour away.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Ramblings

In about 2 hrs I will be unemployed. I'm leaving around 2:30 to pick Madison up from school. I have already reduced her hours at daycare to part time. She will go 2 days a week in order to keep her spot. She really enjoys getting up later....no more 5:50am for her, now its 7am or even later! We may have to tell the cat whats going on though. The Husband leaves around 6am for work and we would all be up by that time anyway. Welllll the cat didnt get the memo that M and I dont have to get up that early anymore. This morning after The Husband left he was doing anything he could to make noise and wake me. On my dresser, on my bed, batting things around. I took my pillow to swat him away. (Dont worry I didnt actually hit him!)

Tomorrow I will drop the child off at school and then head to Target to waste time until my dentist appt at 10:45.

I need to clean the house and the car before Saturday in case any of these kids show up to the party. GRRR! The 1 is coming, 1 said they couldnt, 2 were a maybe but then yesterday on the field trip one of the sisters said the reasons they maybe couldnt have came was cancelled soooo who knows, then we have the 2 other last minute invites I sent out......1 keeps asking if she can bring her older sister. Uh no! Havent heard anything from those parents.

PSA: Please RSVP to parties!!
(I will keep you updated, for sure!)

Sunday, September 13, 2009

I have the sadz

and they just wont go away.

I have 2 more working days until I am unemployed. Yeah, yeah its good because I may find a job that I like but it still sucks. Something happened on Friday that really upset me at work but I'm not even gonna waste my energy to type it and bore you. I just want to be done and get on with the next chapter of my life.

I don't do change.

Ive talked about this before but it still bothers me that I don't have a BFF. I miss my old one who chose the party life. The one who wants to call herself my BFF....I just don't connect with her for many reasons. We are friends but it just isn't there. So why do I get all jealous when she is talking on FB to another friend about hanging out. I push people away and I want to stop doing that but I haven't met anyone lately that I click with.

Madison's party is Saturday. Oh good, we aren't having it around her Sept 6 birthday so she will be in school longer and it will work out better. Uh yeah, wrong. First she is having it at the movies and we are seeing Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs.....they STILL haven't released the showtimes yet. I just asked for the kids for 4hrs and we will work around a time and they can play the other time. OK whatever, the invites go out with the 4hr time. 2 sisters haven't said no but its 90% they aren't coming because they have a game that day, a cousin party and their sister's birthday was to go to the movies that evening. Just say no already....ugh. Hannah probably wont come because one of the sisters is the only one she knows.....haven't heard from her mom yet. Ashton's mom called today and said they were going out of town that weekend to see a football game. She was allowed to invite 5 girls because, including herself, that would be all that would fit in my Pilot. Ava is coming and that's it. That makes me sooooo sad for her. I am sending in 2 more invites tomorrow to 2 other little girls. Who cares if they only have a weeks notice. What are they going to say? No wont hurt anything at this point.

AF is due Friday so I'm sure thats contributing to my sadz but good grief......I just feel like I'm in a transition stage of life and have no idea where to go or what to do. I hate not being in control.

Add to that the fact that we had company today and an ADORABLE 3 mo old baby girl was at my house most of the day. I wanted her.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Always go with the first answer...

I weigh myself on the Wii every 2 weeks, on Saturday morning before I eat anything. Its just a automatic thing I do now....pee then Wii.

So on this lovely Saturday morning it said I LOST 9.9 LBS!! 9.9, that's like 10lbs.

Hmm this sounds good but I knew it was too good to be true. I haven't been exercising since school started.

I get on again to weight myself and it tells me that there is an object on the board (or something) because it is detecting a 10.6 difference.

HA!

I should have stopped the first time and bragged for the next 2 weeks about the 10 lbs I lost. Sure I would have been sad in 2 weeks to see a huge gain but.....one day at a time, right?

Friday, September 11, 2009

9-11

On this day, 8 years ago, I was holding a 5 day old baby in my arms.
She got up for her bottle, I made it and sat down to feed my tiny little bundle of joy. I turned on the TV and started watching something like Good Morning America.
Then it happened!
Breaking News!!
I watched as the country was in Awe and Shock of what just happened. As I'm watching I see the second plane hit. OMG surely I just didn't witness that. All those people, the families, the people in the city. I cried and cried. I hugged my newborn tightly as I wondered what kind of world I just brought her into.

I will never forget.

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Healthy Role Model

Amber is hosting EM:ME again this week and her question is....

How are you being a healthy role model for your children?

(I am also linking this up to Works for me Wednesday over at We are that family because the tip at the end does work for me)

Within the last year I just started watching what I ate and looking at calories.....before I was "That Girl" that could eat whatever she wants. (no that's not why I picked my name) In the beginning I really tried to not talk about weight or dieting in front of M. She is an impressionable little 8 yr old that does not need to worry about that kind of stuff. Since she loves to be right by my side at all times she did see me looking at calories and was intrigued by the new scale. I had never owned a scale in my life but for some reason I just needed to know how much I weighed. I do regret buying it and see it going in the yard sale pile. I can weigh myself on Wii Fit, if needed.

So I slowly began to be more careful until she realized I wasn't worried about it anymore. Or so she thought. I do still look at calories but only when I know she isn't looking.

Over the summer I started a new thing to try to get M to eat healthier. She doesn't like fruits or veggies. (I don't do cooked veggies....mush factor) I cant say that she doesn't like the stuff its more that she isn't willing to try it. I began eating more things like squash and just trying new things to set an example for her. I told her that when we went grocery shopping she could pick a fruit or veggie to try and that she had to eat it before she could get a snack in the evening. She didn't really enjoy it but now she knows what squash, watermelon, and cucumber taste like. She also ate her regulars of apples and bananas. She didn't have to eat alot, just enough for me to see she actually tried it. Like 1 cucumber slice each night for a whole week. Oh yeah each new item lasted for a whole week. In the past few weeks I have been kinda lax on this with school and cheer starting.....this is a reminder to get back into it.

I want her to grow up and be a healthy young lady!

Monday, September 07, 2009

Not enough hours in the day....

give me a few weeks of being unemployed and that may change. I may be bored out of my mind.

I haven't checked in on any blogs since Friday....its now Monday night and I don't see me having time to catch up.

I want to blog.
I have lots to blog about.
I just can not find the time to actually do it.

M is going on week 3 of 3rd grade. I think this may be the toughest year yet. She has always gotten straight A's and been an excellent student. This year they change classes for some subjects and she doesn't like her Math teacher. Shes never not liked a teacher but she said this one is very strict. It may be an interesting year. It is taking quite a bit of time to do her homework each night also. There is a mandatory reading of at least 20 mins, 6 days a week. She has already had a Social Studies test too. I don't think they are playing around this year. lol

Add on to that her cheerleading that started last week. Practice is 2 nights a week and a game every Saturday. They will compete in competitions in Nov. At the beginning of the first practice she was doing the moves but not saying anything. I mouthed to her that she needed to talk also.....by the end of the practice she was doing it all. I was very proud of her and she loved it! When she entered Kindergarten she wouldn't even look at you she was so painfully shy.....so this is HUGE!

We had our family party this weekend for The Husband, M and my step dad. The Husbands birthday was Friday but we had already celebrated it the weekend before. Sunday was M's birthday and the highlight of her day was not riding in a booster seat anymore. OMG she thought she was 16 or something. We have a family tradition of the birthday person picking where they want to eat and she picked Applebee's. Long gone are the days of McDonald's......

Friday, September 04, 2009

I said:

you do what you have to do.....sex cant always be fun.

As if he didn't already know that. When you want a baby you will even stand on your head.

(this makes me giggle today)

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

There's something wrong with this.....

So The Duggars can have NINETEEN kids and I cant even have TWO? (biological)

what the?

Religion or no religion these people are a bit much. It doesn't seem like they plan on stopping either. Wow! I bet she has to be on bedrest the whole pregnancy or else the baby would just fall out. *I know that wasn't nice*

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

It's a par-tay!

all month of September will be filled with lots and lots of birthday parties. Sounds exciting huh? Not really, its actually kind of draining.

4- The Husband
5-cousin
6- M
8- stepfather
15-grandfather....this will be the first birthday since he died so I wanna try to be with my mom
16- M's aunt
18-my friend
19-another friends husband
22-cousin
23-mine and my aunt got married on my birthday so its also their anniv.
30-another friend
you get the point! Its a good thing I wont have a job in 9 more days! ;) (I laugh now but may cry later)

So there you go, that's the reason for the Happy birthday background. I know you were wondering. lol

Monday, August 31, 2009

FMM-Organization

Amber is hosting Friend Making Monday over at her blog so after you are done here you can go on over and check out what everyone else has to say today. If you are coming from Amber's, welcome and come back again!
1. Do you cook every night?
I cook every week night. We eat out on Fri and Sat nights and then I make a big dinner on Sunday.....like homemade bread and everything kind of dinner.
2. What kind of laundry detergent do you use & why?
I use Purex Free and Clear (or something like that.....M and I are allergic to alot of soaps)
3. Do you do laundry every day or loads at a time?
I have actually been very bad at laundry lately. I only do it 2 times a week. Once during the week, if needed and then again on Sunday. Can you tell we don't do much on Sundays? lol
4. How often do you eat out per week?
see #1
5. Where do you usually eat out?
We like variety......Mexican, Thai, pizza, steak, seafood, local little places
6. What is your favorite retail store?
I am a Tarjay girl. I love Kohl's too!
7. What's your favorite thing to drink?
Mt Dew
8. Do you take vitamins? What kind?
I do take a multi vitamin for women. Its supposed to promote fertility.....I read about it on a message board so it has to be true, right?
9. What percentage of the household chores to you do?
55% (gotta get that extra in there! lol)
10. Do your children do chores? {Or will they, did they, etc}
Yes....she is to keep her room clean, put away her clean clothes, fold towels and put soda in the fridge
11. Do you go to church?
No
12. Do you have a housework schedule?
I don't now but I have in the past. I come up with brilliant ideas but just don't follow through for very long. I may start this again.
13. Do you keep a working budget?
I wouldn't say we have a budget but I do track our spending (excel geek here) and if we spend more than I think we should we will talk about it and try better the next month.
14. What do you do at night as a family?
We always eat together, at the table, no TV or any distractions. This is a biggie for me. Sometimes we watch movies or TV or go for walks through the neighborhood or to the store..
15. How do you prepare yourself for a new week?
Sunday is my prep day....if you hadn't already caught on to that. We rarely make plans for Sundays. I clean, get things organized for school and work, make sure all the clothes are clean, update my calendar and we talk about what the week ahead will be like for us as far as plans.
16. What do your mornings look like?
I wake up at 5:30am (or supposed to) and The Husband is usually almost ready to leave. He is so good about getting right out of bed. M's alarm goes off at 5:50 and we leave the house at 6:20. Drop her at before care and head to work by 7am. The bus picks her up at daycare at 7:30am.
17. What time do you get up in the mornings?
is this a trick question to see if I change the time from #16? Ok so its closer to 6:45 when I get out of bed.
18. What time do you go to bed at night?
we try to be in bed by 10pm
19. How do you manage all of the paperwork that floods into your household?
I hate piles so I deal with everything right when it comes in. Mail gets sorted.....bills go in their place until its time for me to pay them (all at once). This year I started a school binder that keeps all of the important papers in it. I mainly did this so that I didn't dig through everything to see what time school really started.....I had to do this last year when I took M to school one day. Bookbag and workbag are right by the back door......these are prepared the night before.
(We wont mention my to be filed pile that's on my bookshelf. Its in our room so noone sees it.....that makes it ok)
20. How do you keep your household organized? {calendars, charts, etc}
I have a calendar that I keep in my 'notebook' and then we have a calendar on the fridge too. These 2 are updated with everything we have going on.....from dentist appts to cheerleading practice to parties etc. Anything that we schedule goes on here. This way if The Husband is on the phone with someone and needs to know if we are free Oct 10 he can check the calendar. (this happened last night)
The Notebook that I talked of is my baby. Everything and Anything goes in there and I usually take it everywhere with me. If I think of a blog post I will write it down so that when I have time I can type it up. If I hear of a book or movie I want to read/see I write it down. You get the picture. I cant remember anything so this is like my little helper. My handy dandy notebook.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

I won! I won!!

I won a giveaway on Tanielle's blog. I was very excited to receive my package because it was a surprise giveaway......I had no idea what I was getting.

This is what I got in the mail:


and here is some of the goodies:


there is tissue paper, tape, gift bags, boxes, wrapping paper, red ribbon, white ribbon, Christmas cards, red pens (funny because I always use red pens to do my cards), an ADORABLE J-O-Y craft, Christmas card holders and also a little Santa sign....so cute!


(these are super cute.....I couldn't get a great shot)




(love this.....its probably my favorite)




Thank you Tanielle.....I truly do LOVE my stuff!!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Writer's Workshop- First day of school

Since Miss M started school this week I thought I would list the 5 best things about the first day of school…….this is one of MamaKat’s prompts for the week.

  1. The anticipation of starting a new school year, with a new teacher and class.
  2. Seeing all of your friends that you haven’t seen since school let out in June.
  3. Wearing new clothes. This was a major plus for M. We bought her school stuff but she wasn’t allowed to use/wear anything until school started. She was so proud to wear her skull vest on the first day of school……she said it was the best shirt she’s ever had. Even though I’m not big on it I love that she loves it so much! (alot of love huh?)
  4. The non-stop chatter. Oh my goodness this child talked and talked and talked about everything and anything that happened at school. I am so excited that she still wants to tell me everything. She likes to think she’s grown up now but things like this make me realize she’s still my baby girl.
  5. For me, the first day of school means that my baby is getting 1 yr older. I don’t know if this really falls under a ‘best’ because it is bittersweet. I love watching her grow and advance but I also miss the days of her fitting on my chest while sleeping. She has grown into such a gorgeous young girl……inside and out.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Soda makes you fat

at least this holds true for me.

I have kept my same exercise routine with a little mixing here and there and nothing happened. The weight would not come off. I cut back on this food and that food. Nothing. Finally I decided to cut back on my Mt Dew. I drink 2 per day and that's it.....honestly I don't think that's alot. I guess to my body it is because once I cut back I lost weight week after week.

Every other day I only have 1 Mt Dew. I just cant deprive myself (yet) and get rid of it totally. I did try diet Mt Dew but couldn't get past the first drink. The Husband had to finish it for me. (he will eat or drink anything) I am only losing around 1lb per week but still I was so shocked that I was finally continuously losing.

We wont talk about me being sick all last week and then getting ready for school to start this week.....that has delayed the exercise a bit.

So ladies, soda may be the key for you too! (I'm a slow learner)

This is a part of Amber's EM:ME. If you haven't already go over and link up to see what everyone else is talking about this week.